[The Brit's Blog]
My autobiography ( a work in progress)sadness
2007-04-24
last night chris found some papers from when he was going to therapy. they gave his diagnosis. he was like 12 then. he was diagnosed as bipolar, and adhd. they said that he was immature for his age. he said he always felt that way. he got really depressed. i told him that a diagnosis isn't a sentence. it doesn' t mean he that way and nothing can be done about it. i also told him that to diagnose any adolescent with a personality or mood disorder is stupid because hormones are still balancing out and causes all kinds of mood changes and personality quirks. i told him not to get depressed about it. he kept apologizing. i told him it was fine. everyone has problems.
about four months ago i started wondering if he was manic depressive. because he has extremes... and little to no middle ground. everything is black and white with him. and lately mostly black. but i didn't come out and say anything what would be the point?
anyway i told him that when we started dating i told him i had problems. i kinda figured he did too. (who doesn't) but i still love him. i think he felt a little better. but he still was pretty upset. i told him usually teens grow out of disorders like that.
i mean two years ago i was diagnosed as "severely depressed with psychotic features and anxiety" but i'm not like that now. and if i didn't tell him he would have never known. i'll admit i do still have anxiety problems. but look at the world...and look at my life... who wouldn't. i think having an anxiety problem and it being pretty much the only serious thing is pretty damn good for me. but anyway. back to chris. i hope he doesn't let this discourage him. i hope that he doesn't get it in his head that he can't just lead a normal life. that he's broken and can't be fixed or anything else along those lines.
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